Missing My Scott

Today marks the one month birthday for our precious baby Scott. I wish so badly that I could just hold him right now and celebrate it with him. The hardest part for me is still having the need to nurture and hold my baby. I guess it is just motherly instinct that comes with being pregnant for so long and having a baby.

I seek comfort through prayers and being with my friends and family a lot. I think now I am inspired by an old roommate who recently lost her little boy to read more. I think searching the scriptures and talks can also bring great comfort. Philip and Summer have boost my spirits several times when I am feeling sad. Little Summer comes to me and asks me if I am missing Scott. She then holds me and pats my back and says its OK. What would I do without her.

If Scott could hear me, which I think he can, I would want him to know how much I love him . I would tell him how proud I am of him that he was so strong and courageous to accept such a short time her on earth. I would say to him that he gave us the best 9 hours he possibly could have, and I am so thankful he allowed us to get to know him a little bit. I would tell him that I miss his hands and feet, and kissing him on the cheeks. Really, I would not be able to stop talking to him, but I would want him to know that I can't wait to hold him again. I know I will get to, just not as soon as I would like.

Scott is an inspiration to me to live a better life. I am sure he is happy to be a part of our family. I have learned so much over the course of the last 6 months, and especially the last month. I am still learning and growing from this special and difficult experience. I await the day I can at last hold my precious little one again. For now I will hold on to the time I did have with him and the memories that were left of him. That will raise my spirit to know he is real and that he will be just as real and special when we see him again.

Idaho/BC Getaway

The last three weeks have been very eventful, and tiring at the same time. Scott was born Tuesday June 17th which was very emotional and eventful in itself. I was then released from the hospital that Friday the 20th. The very next day we left for a vacation to Idaho and BC. The travel there was a little painful, but we made it and were so happy to finally arrive at my mom's house. Summer had way too much fun playing outside constantly, and having so many cousins to play with. We made arrangements for Scott's funeral service on Monday, and had the service on Tuesday.


We were able to go and dress Scott Tuesday morning and hold him again. It was really rewarding to be able to do that for him. We had a small graveside service with family and a couple friends. My mom picked out a really nice plot under a tree that she will eventually share with him. Philip and I both spoke at his service, which I did not think I could do but I am very happy that I did. Even though it was a difficult thing to do, I am so happy that we chose to have a nice funeral service for our special little boy. The service went so well and captured the spirit beautifully. Summer loved playing with her cousin Kiowa who is almost exactly 1 year older than she is. They played really well together too, so it was nice for me to sit back and relax.My sister Kody brought her bike and this awesome attachment bike. Summer was a bit chicken and grumpy as you can see.



Saturday June 28th my niece Cheyenne was baptized. We are so proud and happy for her decision.


Sunday we left for a very long car ride to Langley, BC where Philip's family lives. It was an exhausting trip for all of us especially Philip since he drove the whole 15 hours by himself. Oh well, too bad. I kept telling him that if he just had surgery he would not be able to drive either. The time in Langley was filled with friends of Philip, and family of course. Philip's sister Laurel and her fiancé Aaron took us sailing on Canada day July 1st. It was really fun and quiet. It gave us a chance to relax and think. July 5th Laurel and Aaron got married in the Seattle temple. It was really nice and special to be in the temple with them.Summer was given this dress by Aaron's mom to match her twin granddaughter’s. I do not have a picture of them because Summer would not have her picture taken with others.

In all our trip was nice and we were so happy to be with family and friends at this time in our lives. I am happy to be in my own home now, however, I already miss being there with family and near Scott's grave. I also miss the cool nights since Houston weather is just muggy no matter what time of day or night it is. We love our families and can't wait to visit again.

Scott Lincoln Harvey

Scott Lincoln Harvey

Yesterday June 17th we were blessed to bring our first baby boy into the world. He was born at 8:05 by cesarean section. Philip was a trooper and was able to stay by me the whole time even with his severely weak stomach. The doctors cleaned him off as Philip watched, and then he came back and said his name is going to be Scott Lincoln Harvey.

As most of you know already, Scott has Anencephaly. We have been preparing for this over the last several months, and awaiting the day to meet him and send him of to our Father in Heaven. The doctors did not really think he would live past the recovery room. Scott was able to fight and stay strong for us to hold him and get to know him. He did cry when he was born and had several little whimpers throughout the day.

It was so special for us to hold him, sing to him, and just love him until it was his time to go. Summer has loved having a baby brother to hold and kiss. She did not want anyone else to hold him and she called him her baby. In his dad's arms, Scott returned to our Heavenly Father at 4:50pm. We were able to be with him for almost exactly 9 hours. The time definitely flew by, but gave us an amazing experience.

We love our little boy and know that we will be with him again someday. Isn't the gospel wonderful and comforting. It continue to be hard for us, but we are just happy to have been able to hold him alive for as long as we did. We are all doing well considering, and want to thank all of you for your support and prayers throughout the last months and going forward.

This is Scott in his daddy's blessing outfit when he was a baby. This is also the outfit we have picked to bury him in since Philip was blessed in it. All four of us shortly after Scott was born. Philip felt so special in the scrubs that he did not take them off until he went to bed at night.

This is Philip adoring his little boy. I think Scott was making little noises to Philip.

Summer giving her baby brother one of many kisses. She did not want to stop loving him. She makes a great big sister.

Happy Birthday Summer

Summer turned 3 on June 9th, and we can't believe it. Time has gone by so fast. I look at her baby pictures and wish I could go back just for a day. I look forward to watching her grow and experience new things in life.

To celebrate her birthday we had a pool party/BBQ on June 7th with many of her friends here in Houston. It was really hot that day, and we were all happy to have the water to cool off in. It is always fun to get together with friends. Thanks to everyone who came you made the party a blast. Here are some pics of the events.

This is the best picture I have of everyone. I forgot to take pictures of everyone in the pool.

Summer and Brinley chillin' after swimming.

The cake and presents melting in the sun.

Summer's Tinkerbell birthday cake made of fondant. I don't think I will have the motivation to do this ever again. We'll see.

The wind kept blowing the candles out, so Philip let Summer try to blow the torch thing out instead.

Presidential Canidates

I have to admit that I am not the most political person. In fact the last time I did decide to vote even without knowing anything about any of the candidates. I have given attention to this campaign a lot considering I never did before. I am no political buff like you Rishelle, however I did take an interest for the first time. I was very saddened when Mitt Romney dropped out, and I totally almost stopped watching everything. I watched every now and then, but it was just boring and annoying. Anyhow, now I am in a dilemma because I don't know who I will vote for in the fall. What do I do if I don't like either candidate? I have thought about not voting at all, but then I would not be able to complain in the future when mistakes are made or when I don't like something about the government. For now I will try to gain interest in following again, and of course my dear friend Rishelle I hope I can ask you what is up. Anyhow, all I know is I'm confused.

Huge Spuds

Growing up in Idaho eating potatoes almost daily it was never a special thing or a big surprise to see a massive potato. My mom worked at a potato warehouse when I was really little and she would bring home potatoes 2x the size of this potato. That was rare and special for me.
Here in Houston when I buy my potatoes they are usually 3 inches long is all like this itsy bitsy one shown on the right. I have never had any that are much larger than that. Also most of the time it is hard to find Idaho potatoes in the bag, however, I think I could by them individually. Most of them are grown here in Texas. One bag that I bought a few weeks ago happened to be a bag of Texas grown potatoes. To my surprise this huge potato was mixed in with little baby ones and a few descent sized baker potatoes. I could not believe my eyes. It was large enough to make a good amount of fried potatoes to feed my whole family.

Now, you may ask yourself why the random post about potatoes? Well, being from potato country I must like my potatoes. So, to all the Houstonians out there, there is hope that someday you too will get lucky and come across a large potato hiding under all the miniature ones.

Camping

So we decided to go camping last weekend since it has been long over due. We have not been since before Summer was born. I do still wish there were mountains around, but camping at Huntsville State Park was nice and green with tons of trees and a lake.

Summer absolutely loved it. She did have the hardest time falling asleep though. I think she just loved being outside and being creative for fun. Also she had free rane to get dirty.

Philip enjoyed playing Frisbee, and just being away from the city and out with friends. Some friends of ours Jodi and Denzil brought bikes, so Philip took advantage and went on some trials with Denzil. It really makes me want to invest in some bikes.

OH MAN!! Now I remembered why I did not want any pictures taken of me being pregnant with Summer. The least I could have done is worn normal clothes. SICK. I had fun camping except for the sleeping part, and I had mega allergies that decided to start the morning before driving up there. It was still so much fun, and I look forward to camping way more in the future.

This is Brinley and Denny having fun. Or maybe just Brinley, Denny looks like he is sleeping or pouting.

Camping always brings so much fun and relaxation. I did remember the Starburst this time. Hopefully I did not disappoint the Scott's or the Roger's by talking it up so much. It really is so yummy.